Last day of 2008...

2008 was an AMAZING year.

But I can't wait for 2009!

I'm changing everything:

my eating habits, my personality [just alittle bit :)], the way I look at things/at life, getting closer to GOD.

I'm taking CHANCES.

I don't think I can handle it...

Cancer's a BITCH...

excuse my french

But it just took the strongest kid I know today.

He was 13 and was fighting it for a while now.

I just don't understand why God would make an illness like this?

But I remember that my parents told me that God gives these inconveniences to people who

can handle it.

But this little boy just left an older sister and two amazing parents.

And I don't know what I would do if anything like this happened to me or my siblings

or even my parents.

Which is why I'm praying they stop smoking.

I just don't want them to go through the pain and us have to deal with that also.

PLEASE keep this family in your prayers.

IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it.

2008 is almost over.

2009 here I come!

It has been an amazing Christmas and I hope the same for everyone else.

Even though it feels like summer down here [no lie,I wore a tank top last night]

Everything turned out perfect.

Hopefully that means a good start for a new year.

Hopefully some new beginnings,

new people,

and new adventures.

WOW

So Christmas is almost here.

CAN'T WAIT!!

This year went by so fast.

But I guess that's what happens when you get older.

I wish I was still 5 and i was so care free and happy all the time.

Now I'm so careful and not really living life as best as i can.

I'm like a 40 year old stuck in a 16 year old's body.

I shouldn't be all up tight and stressed out as much as i am right now.

ughh HELPPP!!

growth means change and change involves risk, stepping into the unknown

Change.

Why am I so afraid of it?

Letting go to the past and hoping for the future is what I need help understanding.

So I guess change is a good thing... at times.

Risks.

I can explain this in 3 words.

I'm a wimp.

Haa well mostly it's because of trust issues and getting scared when I get to close to

someone.

Uncomfortable.

I guess you'll never learn if you're always comfortable and safe.

And knowing that that feeling won't always be there...

scares me.

Winterformal was funn but as you can see ^ I'm confused...

SNOWWWW!!!!!

AAAHHHHHH IT SNOWEDD YESTERDAY!!!!!!

THAT WAS LIKE THE 1ST TIME IN LIKE 4 YEARS! WELL IT'S NOT LIKE WE WERE USED TO SNOW BEFORE IT ONLY SNOWED ONCE AND THEN KATRINA HAPPENED.

WELLL WE HAD TO BEGGGG OUT TEACHERS TO GO OUT BUT IT WAS AMAZING!!!

i never realized how beautiful snow was... and how cold it was haa

well thats about it for now

winterformals tomorrow can't waitt!!!!

ohh and here are some pictures of my school

winterformal

AHHH i can't wait!! my winterformal this weekend and we're going to a party after. just like your average dance. i have a date and he's cool and all. we're just a friends though and nothing more but im fine with that. i hope everything goes well and it's funn. my dress is soo pretty too it's like fushia pink but alittle darker. it's spagetti strapes and it's like bubble dress but gathers on the side. it's cuter in person haa. soo i'll keep yall posted on how it goes and everything. :)

don't wait for things to happen, force them to happen...

umm... i guess the title says it all.

lets just say i'm not one to show my feelings and im trying to start.

but when something bad happens, i just try to forget it. i can't talk about , i just keep it all bottled up inside. sometimes i just need to cry and i crash.

or i get nervious around a certain somebody and i just put up my guard.

and they get the wrong signal.

and EVERYTHING goes wrong.

then it's just the lets just be friends thing.

and then i feel like a lamo...

:/

well well well...

soo you guys are probably wondering how i did, what i got, and other things like that...

well, lets start off with i tried my best which is all that matters. i had a few little careless mistakes which killed me on the inside, because it's the parts that i usually never mess up on and i felt like i let my group down.

but on a better note out of the 4 dances i was in including my solo. i got ALL GOLDS!
i was soooo nervous because they were judging really hard. im proud and glad all that pressure is over. :)

TWILIGHTTTT!!!!!

OKAY I SAW IT YESTERDAY AND MIGHT I SAY IT WAS AWESOMEEEEE!!!!!
I JUST WISH IT WAS A LITTLE BIT LONGER AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN EVEN BETTER.
BUT I SOOOO WANT TO SEE IT AGAIN!!!

well I'm off to my dance competition! wish me luck! i hope i do good, but i know I'm going to do my best!

well I'll probably get on sooner or later. then I'll tell you the results!! AHH I'M SOO NERVIOUSS!!

ohh jeezee!

ahh well its been awhile and I'll start off with hmm lets say Halloween.

HALLOWEENNNNN!!!! WAS AMAZINGGGGG!!!!!!!!!! enough said met some amazingly funny guys and i hope we hang out this weekend :P.

next topic school...
school can be soo much better if it wasn't all girls there so aggravating and the teachers because they are totally sooo unfairr!!! so lets just say right now I'm not doing so hot.

artt!
I've been taking two art classes at school and I'm really starting to like it again. i want to go back and take some classes on like drawing, charcoal, and pastel (which I'm really good at) but I'm in wayyy too much right now with dance team and dance lessons. i really need someones opinion on this one. but I'm really starting to love art and I'm going to be so sad next semester when i don't have it anymore :(

danceee!
ahhh well tomorrow we have a dance competition and I'm sooo ready for it. I'm just a little nervous on somethings but I'm ready as ever! so dancing has been going good and i really feel like I'm starting to improve and get better. i feel really good, most the time, after dancing now instead of just feeling bummed out (which most of this attitude was from this girl who just came to our school and she thinks she the BOMB and all, but she is a really beautiful dancer, she just needs to fix her ego)but that's because she hasn't been at dancing in like a month because she can't do this competition. but i guess I'm just going to the bigger girl and get over it! :)

ohh and my friends are FREAKING AWESOMEE!!!

I <3 WINTERRRR!!!!!! :)

halloween

ahh i love fall! halloweens almost here and im going to be and 80's workout girl. haa! and its football season man i love it when its football season it always gives me something to do. and school fairs!! ohh soo much funn!! i just saw nick and noras infinite playlist! it was sooo good and cutee. im soo buying it!!! well my jobs okay im probable going to quit because its taking up my whole weekend and its pissing me off! but i need the money soo ill probably stick with it for alittle while longer. well i went to the house of shock it was okay kind of scary not that scary thoughh. well thats really all i needed to sayy... byee

hmm...

well i havent been on for a while so let me fill you in...

1. dancing started and i had a rough start with it i guess being out for the summer really brought me down but im keeping up and doing better. i was in a dance convention resently and one of the contempary teachers really got me thinking with how i dance and really feeling the movements and just dancing in general. but i need to get over with having this new girl being favored now i just need to do my best and hope for the best. i cant wait to start competing again i love getting on staged and performing.

2. i got a job!!! its pretty fun too. alot of kids work it so im not the youngest. its a wedding respetion place and it pays good too! so i get payed alot for doing so little. the worst part is that its over the weekend so i have to sacrifice a day to go out but i can handle that. :)

3. dance team is getting a little rocky with the team and caring about practices and games and appearence. so we had a meeting on all of it which was really funny but serious at the same time (if you get what im saying :) ) but hopefully it will get better.

4. school sucks :(. im doing okay in classes im trying to get all a's and b's but right now i have like 2 or 3 c's so hopefully i can pull it up! its just so stressful right now which might explain the carelessness on dance team which i can undersatnd for us sophmores. with the reasearch papers and biology to keep up with its pretty hard to do extra practices and games till like 7 at night. but i think i can handle it after this quarter exams whitch i should be studying for but im too busy being distracted by this. lol so i guess i have to go soon :)

5. MY BIRTHDAYYY!!!! my sweet sixteen i was soo excited!!! it was last saturday and my friends and i had a blast! we went out to eat and we were obnoxious. then went to a fair and we hung out with friends and say a fight which was pretty funny because the they were like 4ft 10' eighth graders who bawled when the got in handcuffs lol. then slept over at my friends house which turned out better than i thought so that was basicly my birthday!

dancingg

ahh well dancing started this week and im soooo soree ugh im so excited to be back and i cant wait for competition to start . i love performing!!! and my solo is amazing if i must say its very challenging in some parts. well i hope we go to more competitions this year and conventions my first convention is like 2 weekends from noww and i cant wait i just hope im caught up by then. since weve been off ive been practicing but my turns arent as strong as they were. soo i guess thats all i really need to say soo byee

HURRICANEEEE!!!!

ughh gustav ruined everything we missed a dance its like the best one of them all i hope the reschedual it :/ good thing it wasnt like another katrina thank god! but it still ruined like my room its a mess now and i have to put everything back now ughhh and now theirs another one ike. ike needs to go somewhere with himself and its not going to be louisiana thats for suree. ughh well dancing about to start and im sooo excitedd!!!!! :))))) welll another pointless post dout anyones reading this sooo byee

school!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sucks >:(


i no this is a wasted post

summer :(((

today is offically the last day of summer.school starts tomorrow and all i did this summer was practice and practice. well practice is only making me stronger with dancing so i hope ive improved this summer. well i dont really feel like writing so im probably going to right tomorrow about the first day of school or somethingg :( well byee

school starts... soon :(

we start school in a week which im not that sad but i cant wait to see all my friends again! now i'll accually have something to do on the weekends besides just going to the movies (which i probably saw like every movie that came out this summer) but now their will be football games, dances, and parties and i cant wait. the school part is just going to suckk this year and i already know it i have the worst teachers in like every hard class. i already know im going to fail biology... and english and american history. this sucks :(. well i got my laptop back for school so i will be on more and posting more soo thats about it. well byee!!

yet again...

go to a water park a guy talks to me but has to go so i cant get his number, of course i think im an idiot for not getting his number and that i wont see him again. we're walking out of the water park i see him getting in to his car with 2 of his friends and im soo freakin happy by that point so we walk in front of the car they follow us to our parking spot they get our numbers. soo i talk to all three boys but i really wanted to talk to the boy that i saw first lets call him K not trying to claim him or anything. so my friend talks to one of his friends lets call him G. well she doesnt like G like that but yet she still flirts with him and everything. so i was talking to his other friend lets call him Z and his nice and cute and the romantic type so even though it wasnt the one i originally talked to i was starting to fall for him. but of course my friend being all boy horny when i tell her im talking to Z she has to talk to him and flirt with him and then talks to K too . im sorry u dont like G but you dont have to flirt with the guy i like too thats just wrong! im a person that doesnt really like to show what shes feeling so i dont really say anything about it but its not like im trying to steal the people she likes noo i let her be and try to support her and give her advice but noo she never lets me just have one guy (shes pretty and she can get alot of guys and is shocked when one guy she likes doesnt like her back) and if it wasnt for me they wouldnt have talk to us in the first place. it just gets me pissed off because she has to claim/call every guy so i dont even try any more. im probably just going to become a nun :(. well im done venting soo bye.

camp...

im going to dance camp tomorrow until Sunday and this is the first time in three years i actually get to stay the whole time. im a little scared but also excited! we got to perform our home routine which is a Michael Jackson theme lol. its really a really fun dance! well ill tell you guys how it goes. wish me luckk!!

dance revue!!!!

it was amazingggg!!! it turned out perfect! even though their were a little mess ups here and there but no ones perfect. i was in 11 numbers and i was soo panicked at first but i got over it after the opening number which turned out okay not the best probably because we didnt make it on time and had to run on stage in the middle lol it was funny though. well my solo was really pretty but i did mess up on a turn and almost fell but i played it off im good at that. i cant wait to get the tape and see all my dances!! well thats it. thats how my dance revue went soo bye!
!

dancinggg

dancings almost over :( only like 2 weeks left then the revue but thats my favorite part performing in front of a big crowd. the rush you get on stage and then the reaction to the crowd when you do a lot of turns or and amazing jump. without dancing i think i would die, literally. im in 10 dances :o. im barely going to have time to see the revue! well my solo is to hallelujah by allison crowe and its a lyrical dance my very first lyrical dance so i hope i put a lot in to it and don't mess up because i learned it like a week ago :/ and the revue is like 2 weeks away!! im kind of excited to try i new style of dance because i usually do musical theatre or jazz (which is my favorite style of dance) but i always love trying something neww!! well wish me luck!!

yes this is me i just didn't want to show my face this was my solo last year to amyazing mayzie i a gold with it a the competition which was the highest you could have gotten!!

:(((((((((

im probably not going to be on that much till next school year because the schools taking there computer backk :((( im soo sadd now i cant get in myspace or facebook anytime i want i have to wait my turn with my family who doesnt know i have a myspace or facebook. uggghhh this sucksss!!! hopefully this summer will be amazing so i can write it all down when i can on here. so until then. byee!!

SUMMMERRR!!!

yesterday was our last full day of school and then all we have to do is take exams :( but i cant wait summers going to be filled with concerts, swimming, vactions, guys... well i just wanted to show how happy and cant wait!!!

stresssssss...

ughhh school school school... what can i say its the end of the year everyones CRAZZZYYY!! i cant wait till summer its going to be amazingggg!!!!! but i have 2 more days of school left and them off to blue bayou and i cant wait. but first i have to get over school and im sooo stressed. im like trying to pull everything up to a B and its sooo hard in spanish because my teacher is such a BITCHHH she counts homework as like a test and gives us homework every nightt. well i cant wait for the exams to come so i can fail them alll because i dont no anythingg. well i guess ill go and i wish i would just be talking to myself on this thing... i need to know how to make this thing noticed?

ughh boyss...

i try to be nice but i dont want to hurt him. i try not to lead him on im just beeing nice. ughh why are boys soo oblivious!! it just aggravates me. by the way i finally found a guy who i liked and i think he liked me i mean we flirted and all; but he might like my friend though (who doesnt :/) idk. and i fing out hes a grade younger than me and i no i already said im going for older people and all but i might have to break that promise. that is if we see each other again which i dout :(.
just my luck. i have serious boy issues. im soo picky and the ones i like dont like me back or like my friends it suckksss!!!! well im done ventingg byee

i hatee fake people

ok i get that your tryig to look good infront of guys but it gets pretty annoying when you have to go to the bathroom every five minutes to loo at urself. no wonder why people think your conceted you look at yourself 24/7 it gets sooo aggravating. if you want guys to look at stop pancakong makeup on ur face and look real for once because no guy wants their girlfriend to look unflawless then that would be a boring relationship. and starving just makes u like everyone else all stickfigured and blended in with them fakes. and you were the one always like wanting to stand out and be urself well news flash ur not urself anymore the old you wouldnt do this and i like the old you way better. because the new u is an annoying bitch and always wants to pick a fight with someone that YOUUU always start. guys may like u but all they wan to do is get in your pants then drop you like that. so start eating and stop caring because when your boyfriend sees you with out makeup on he isnt going to no who u are becuse u look lik eur 20 which is why all these wayyy older guys come and talk to you. so for once look and act your AGEEE because your going to loose all ur friends if you dont cause when you dont eat your turn into the biggest BITCHHHHH EVERR!!! and we hate you like that an when we try to tell you something you yell at us and say that its you life and u can do what you want. well if you keep doing that your going to DIEEEEEEE!!!! do you not get that were trying to HELP you o guess not since your soo stubbern. you need SERIOUS HELP LITURALLY!!! and this is comming from a friend even though this does sound really harsh maybe it will get through your head now!

springg breakk '08

well spring break was AWESOMEEEE!! first time i ever drank (beer pong) and it was pretty funn well not that you have to drink to have fun but for a first time it was fun. meeting new people and meeting people you already knew aboyt is awsome too and talking to people you thouht you never would talk to again and then got bored and prank called your wholee phone book is pretty fun.well i was bore and discided to post this. the movie 21 is really good to i recommend it alott. well byee

jealous

I no you shouldn't be jealous of your friends but when she's like talking to 10 hot guys that half of them she doesn't like it bothers the crap out of me because I'm not even talking to one! It just bothers me I dont think I'm that ugly I mean I know I'm not ugly but I'm not the hottest thing on the block. I should put myself down but I just get tired of being the ugly duckling in a pond of swans. Ugggh I just need to rise to there level maybe not with my beauty but maybe with my personality or something like that. Wel just needed to get that out. Bye!

ughhh...

Boys, boys, boys.... the ones you like dont like you and the ones that like you, you dont like back. That always happens to me and I hate it. The one guy you think is perfect you see only in a picture then when you finally meet them they are nothing you pictured. It's like making something seem best than it is and I always do that. All the boys I like are always a year younger and so imature and i try to go for someone my age or older but they're not interested. I hate that you have one friend that always gets the guys you like and you get soo jealous but you can't do anything about but just sit in the backround and hope someone notices you. Well, you know what I'm changing from now on I'm not going to sit in the backround I'm going to make myself look as pretty as her and go out and be noticed. Why live life if you're just going to blend in I need to make myself stand out but how?? I guess I can try to be myself in a different way if that makes sense. I guess I'll try that. Well I guess this post is finished. Bye!

new year alreadyy

ok soo everyone already knew that because its like beggging of february. so january was cool could have been better but im goin to disney world in a couple of days so its all good. parades are funn but i got the flu from marchin in them so now im sitting at home while all my friends are at the parades. i get a whole week of school of thank godd for mardi gras its the best time of the year! well dancings good ive done a competition in january and more to come. i dont know how i placed in the last one because the only give out up to 5th place but thats fine with me because i knew i wouldnt make the top five not to be negative but you can kind of pick out the people that are better than but i did my best. okk enough of me rambling on about me losing. i might be going to the WE THE KINGS concert soon omg i love there music godd i dont no what i would do without music. i read a quote that said without music life wouldn't be fair and i totally agree think of all the musicans that pore their hearts out to their fans every night by bangging on the drums, slamming the cords on a guitar, or by screaming in to a microphone. everyone has to let their feelings get out somehow and i think they have the best way. i mean dancers jump and turn and hit the floor but its still kind of keeping everything inside. i no i just want to scream sometimes but i dance to let off some steam but professions get to sing and dance on their stages every night when im limited to a box size "studio"that i like to call my room. well i guess thats good enough for writing for a while now so i'll do this in another 2 months. later