ughhh...

Boys, boys, boys.... the ones you like dont like you and the ones that like you, you dont like back. That always happens to me and I hate it. The one guy you think is perfect you see only in a picture then when you finally meet them they are nothing you pictured. It's like making something seem best than it is and I always do that. All the boys I like are always a year younger and so imature and i try to go for someone my age or older but they're not interested. I hate that you have one friend that always gets the guys you like and you get soo jealous but you can't do anything about but just sit in the backround and hope someone notices you. Well, you know what I'm changing from now on I'm not going to sit in the backround I'm going to make myself look as pretty as her and go out and be noticed. Why live life if you're just going to blend in I need to make myself stand out but how?? I guess I can try to be myself in a different way if that makes sense. I guess I'll try that. Well I guess this post is finished. Bye!

new year alreadyy

ok soo everyone already knew that because its like beggging of february. so january was cool could have been better but im goin to disney world in a couple of days so its all good. parades are funn but i got the flu from marchin in them so now im sitting at home while all my friends are at the parades. i get a whole week of school of thank godd for mardi gras its the best time of the year! well dancings good ive done a competition in january and more to come. i dont know how i placed in the last one because the only give out up to 5th place but thats fine with me because i knew i wouldnt make the top five not to be negative but you can kind of pick out the people that are better than but i did my best. okk enough of me rambling on about me losing. i might be going to the WE THE KINGS concert soon omg i love there music godd i dont no what i would do without music. i read a quote that said without music life wouldn't be fair and i totally agree think of all the musicans that pore their hearts out to their fans every night by bangging on the drums, slamming the cords on a guitar, or by screaming in to a microphone. everyone has to let their feelings get out somehow and i think they have the best way. i mean dancers jump and turn and hit the floor but its still kind of keeping everything inside. i no i just want to scream sometimes but i dance to let off some steam but professions get to sing and dance on their stages every night when im limited to a box size "studio"that i like to call my room. well i guess thats good enough for writing for a while now so i'll do this in another 2 months. later