Last day of 2008...

2008 was an AMAZING year.

But I can't wait for 2009!

I'm changing everything:

my eating habits, my personality [just alittle bit :)], the way I look at things/at life, getting closer to GOD.

I'm taking CHANCES.

I don't think I can handle it...

Cancer's a BITCH...

excuse my french

But it just took the strongest kid I know today.

He was 13 and was fighting it for a while now.

I just don't understand why God would make an illness like this?

But I remember that my parents told me that God gives these inconveniences to people who

can handle it.

But this little boy just left an older sister and two amazing parents.

And I don't know what I would do if anything like this happened to me or my siblings

or even my parents.

Which is why I'm praying they stop smoking.

I just don't want them to go through the pain and us have to deal with that also.

PLEASE keep this family in your prayers.

IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it.

2008 is almost over.

2009 here I come!

It has been an amazing Christmas and I hope the same for everyone else.

Even though it feels like summer down here [no lie,I wore a tank top last night]

Everything turned out perfect.

Hopefully that means a good start for a new year.

Hopefully some new beginnings,

new people,

and new adventures.

WOW

So Christmas is almost here.

CAN'T WAIT!!

This year went by so fast.

But I guess that's what happens when you get older.

I wish I was still 5 and i was so care free and happy all the time.

Now I'm so careful and not really living life as best as i can.

I'm like a 40 year old stuck in a 16 year old's body.

I shouldn't be all up tight and stressed out as much as i am right now.

ughh HELPPP!!

growth means change and change involves risk, stepping into the unknown

Change.

Why am I so afraid of it?

Letting go to the past and hoping for the future is what I need help understanding.

So I guess change is a good thing... at times.

Risks.

I can explain this in 3 words.

I'm a wimp.

Haa well mostly it's because of trust issues and getting scared when I get to close to

someone.

Uncomfortable.

I guess you'll never learn if you're always comfortable and safe.

And knowing that that feeling won't always be there...

scares me.

Winterformal was funn but as you can see ^ I'm confused...

SNOWWWW!!!!!

AAAHHHHHH IT SNOWEDD YESTERDAY!!!!!!

THAT WAS LIKE THE 1ST TIME IN LIKE 4 YEARS! WELL IT'S NOT LIKE WE WERE USED TO SNOW BEFORE IT ONLY SNOWED ONCE AND THEN KATRINA HAPPENED.

WELLL WE HAD TO BEGGGG OUT TEACHERS TO GO OUT BUT IT WAS AMAZING!!!

i never realized how beautiful snow was... and how cold it was haa

well thats about it for now

winterformals tomorrow can't waitt!!!!

ohh and here are some pictures of my school

winterformal

AHHH i can't wait!! my winterformal this weekend and we're going to a party after. just like your average dance. i have a date and he's cool and all. we're just a friends though and nothing more but im fine with that. i hope everything goes well and it's funn. my dress is soo pretty too it's like fushia pink but alittle darker. it's spagetti strapes and it's like bubble dress but gathers on the side. it's cuter in person haa. soo i'll keep yall posted on how it goes and everything. :)

don't wait for things to happen, force them to happen...

umm... i guess the title says it all.

lets just say i'm not one to show my feelings and im trying to start.

but when something bad happens, i just try to forget it. i can't talk about , i just keep it all bottled up inside. sometimes i just need to cry and i crash.

or i get nervious around a certain somebody and i just put up my guard.

and they get the wrong signal.

and EVERYTHING goes wrong.

then it's just the lets just be friends thing.

and then i feel like a lamo...

:/